Every so often I feel frustated, angry, sad or jealous about something. I know that it is impossible to feel happy 24/24. But I know that these problems are meaningless, they don’t deserve that much attention. But then why do I still get so obsessed with them ?
The opposite is also true, every so often I feel very grateful for everything. When this happens I feel like the luckiest man in the world.
Recently I thought about how much I hated movies or tv shows about zombie apocalypses. Deep inside I know that if something like this did happen in the real world – if the humanity was wiped off – I would feel extremely sad and scared.
I love humans. More precisely, I love the people around me. Can you imagine for a second a world without the people you love ? Without anyone at all ? Just you alone on earth. Nobody to make you laugh, to say hi to, nobody to hug hate or insult. Just you, standing there. All alone.
Wouldn’t you miss everyone ?
Maybe that you feel alone even though there is people around you, maybe that you feel like you don’t belong, or that nobody really, genuinely loves you. But that’s not true, you must know that at least, you love you. I might sound crazy but think about it.
You probably forget about it most of the time but you are actually breathing right now. You are living. Air fills up your lungs, and a heart beats in your chest, sending blood in every part of your body. Billions of cells are fighting diseases for you right now, to protect you. Because to these cells, to your heart, to your body, to yourself; you matter.
You aren’t grateful enough to your body. Let’s talk about your skin for example. You can touch and feel things, you can prevent yourself from burning or freezing your body without knowing. You can taste the warmth of the sun or of a loved one. Your skin helps you feel the love of the world. How would you dare say that you do not love yourself ?
You were born into this world, your body carefully took the resources from everything around you to feed itself, to grow. Love is everywhere around you. Everyday you eat things that were made with the help of the soil and water. You eat things that were part of the cycle of life and one day you will die and become love yourself by becoming a part of the world around you once again. How would you dare think that you were never loved ? Even if that is the case, you will one day (whether you like it or not) be the one who loves.
My point is, stop trying to be more than what you are. A human.
Accept that you can’t be perfect, that you are flawed. You are alive. You are human. You are here with me. Stop being hard on yourself, there is a clear line between trying to become a better person, and trying to be “perfect”. Do not cross that line.
Next time you feel sad, jealous, angry or whatever. Don’t overthink too much about it. You are not the only one to feel lost sometimes. Everyone does.